It’s been a real long time since I’ve last written a blog. Finally, I have the time and courage to write something.
Just read the title of the entry written earlier this year and I was wondering if I’d ever have a proper career. I was so depressed and greatly discouraged back then. However, God is good all the time.
There are a few things which I’d like to share about my current “status” but there will be something which I’d not want to share unless it really comes true.
Do you remember that I was talking of changing cell group etc and how I was so unhappy with my cell group? Well, good news! I am no longer unhappy there. In fact, I enjoy myself in the cell group. I am glad that I did not change any cell group!
W149, a cell which I felt left out and rejected is now a place where I can dare say that I enjoy and like! I really thank God for the work that He’s done in my life. God used me to bring in people like Alexus, Pierre, Isabelle and Terrence Leong. Shortly after they joined in, friends like Pei En, Meiyi, Alvin and various others were added to the cell.
I believe that the people who really spoke to my life were both Alexus and Pierre. Although they are both imperfect individuals, they are the ones who confronted me when I was having wrong perspective. I believe that it’s true that there are times when we are so cooped up with ourselves that we would not see things clearly and I thank God for the two of them. I thank God for my friend, Pierre that he’s able to bring across things to me in a nice manner.
The cell group which forgot about my birthday last year actually remembered and knew when my birthday is! Although not many celebrated with me, I thank God for Alexus that she had organized a small celebration for me on the actual day of my birthday!
This year’s birthday is one of the most memorable one for me. This is because this is the first time in my life that I have many friends celebrating with me and for me. People like Terrence Leong, Man Ling, Alexus, Isabelle, Xiao Hui etc. They are all from the cell group! Woohoo!!!
Birthday may seem like a small event to most but to me, it’s one of the most important days in my life. Please do not misunderstand me but to me, birthday is a day where I hope that people would remember me and would shower me with love, company and with presents. I really envy my friends who have tons of presents on their birthday or have lots of company when it’s their birthday.
I really disliked those ex-secondary school friends of mine especially when they would honour each other with expensive gifts but when it’s my birthday, they would suddenly become very miserable in their giving. I know that it’s not the value of the gift that matters but somehow, it’s the difference that they showed me that hurts me rather bad. Which is why whenever it’s someone’s birthday, I would see how they would treat the person and how they would treat me. If there’s a difference, then, I’d know how to treat that person.
To whomever who still thinks that I don’t appreciate the cell group or still have anything against anyone in the cell group, please note this… MOVE ON IN LIFE! Life is NEVER stagnant! Stop talking about the past.. It’ll never have future!
Please open up your eyes and see. I do know that you can see but please see with your eyes wide open! If I don’t enjoy the fellowship of the people whom I told you I had disliked due to some misunderstandings, please open up your eyes. Am I not talking to them and having fun with them? Or is there anything wrong with you?
Secondly, my career!
I know that I am not earning as much as some of my peers. They may be earning tens of thousands per month and boast that they are blessed by God. With all due respect, I do know that you are blessed by God. You do have talents, abilities and qualifications but know this… I am not as talented, gifted or qualified as you are. I may not be as well to do as you are too but have you heard or seen what God is doing in my life?
Just like you, I do give my tithes, offering and give onto the building fund. When it’s not the time for me to be blessed by God, does it mean that I am giving lesser or am less blessed by you? I am blessed in my health by God already! Considering that I do not have much of health issues and I don’t have any sickness in my life. So wake up!
Did you know that the job that I initially applied for is only an officer’s job? Did you know that I was offered a higher position? Did you know that with the qualifications/ experiences and past history in my career, I doubt that anyone would offer me the job that I am given and the range of salary that I am given as well? Did you also know that after being in the job for less than half a year, I will be given more responsibilities and I will be going into the managerial role next month onwards?
If the above mentioned is not a blessing of God, then what is? Is God’s blessing mainly consists of plain money, money and more money? Please… Is your mind the size of a pea?
Looking back since the beginning of January 2008 till now… I can say that I am blessed! I am indeed going to overcome whatever that is to come. YES! Although I don’t have the qualifications, experiences or even the abilities to do what is given to me. I know one thing for sure… God IS ABLE to provide me whatever I need or ask for even before I knew I’d need it!
I believe in the year 2009, I will be able to do greater things and will rise to further heights in my Spiritual walk, in my career and walk in better health too! Amen to that!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
Will I ever..?
Get a career that will give me a stable income? Get someone whom I'll give my everything to? Be able to go full flight into the industry which I am in? Get more supports and referrals to the industry I am in? Get out of this state which I am in? Be more financially free and get out of debts?
Sigh...
Sigh...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Food for thought!
Just as I was praying and thinking what I want in life, a thought, which I believe is from God, came to me...
As I asked for examples, God showed a few characters in the bible:
Samson, born with great strength and might, was destined for greatness. He was the judge of Israel but with the choices that he made in life and unwillingness to change, he did not make much impact in the land of Israel.
He was not willing to listen to the Word and went after the women that are not from his own. He was also a lusty and stubborn person who just wanted to please himself. With that weakness, the women that he lusted after were the downfall of his life. Not only did Samson lose his prayer life, he also lost his eyes - his vision.
Samson was a person born for greatness! Blessed with supernatural strength and had the potential to be the greatest judge of Israel. Other than that, he was a man like everyone. He too, was given the choice to choose. However, he did not make up his mind as to where he wants to go in life. In the end, that potential that was deposited in him, was not fully utilised.
Besides Samson, there were others whose life was not fully utilised to fulfill their potential. Another example was Judas, the one who betrayed Jesus.
There are many others in the bible that made correct choices. People like Jabez and David. They were ordinary folks like any one on earth. They were not as strong as Samson or as wise as Solomon. They were not as rich as the rich young ruler too. However, they made right choices with their lives and became history makers and world shakers.
Take King David for example: God called David - A man after God's heart. He chose God instead of the worldly things of the world. Not that he is not a man of the world but he is a man IN the world.
When God showed to King David that he had made the wrong choices, King David changed and repented. He NEVER went back to the wrong choices and continue doing the wrong things and making wrong choices.
Jabez was called by God - A man of Valor! Although he was an illegitimate son, he did not despised himself. He knew that he is nothing by himself. He relied on God and called upon God. He was hungry and thirsty for God. God answered his prayer when he prayed - (1 Choronicles 4: 9)
I am writing this also, to myself. That I can read it whenever I can and meditate on this...
Hope that you, too are blessed!
"Life is about choices. NOT the Potential. Potential to Greatness is always there but the choices made in life is the one that determines your greatness!" - God
As I asked for examples, God showed a few characters in the bible:
Samson, born with great strength and might, was destined for greatness. He was the judge of Israel but with the choices that he made in life and unwillingness to change, he did not make much impact in the land of Israel.
He was not willing to listen to the Word and went after the women that are not from his own. He was also a lusty and stubborn person who just wanted to please himself. With that weakness, the women that he lusted after were the downfall of his life. Not only did Samson lose his prayer life, he also lost his eyes - his vision.
Samson was a person born for greatness! Blessed with supernatural strength and had the potential to be the greatest judge of Israel. Other than that, he was a man like everyone. He too, was given the choice to choose. However, he did not make up his mind as to where he wants to go in life. In the end, that potential that was deposited in him, was not fully utilised.
Besides Samson, there were others whose life was not fully utilised to fulfill their potential. Another example was Judas, the one who betrayed Jesus.
There are many others in the bible that made correct choices. People like Jabez and David. They were ordinary folks like any one on earth. They were not as strong as Samson or as wise as Solomon. They were not as rich as the rich young ruler too. However, they made right choices with their lives and became history makers and world shakers.
Take King David for example: God called David - A man after God's heart. He chose God instead of the worldly things of the world. Not that he is not a man of the world but he is a man IN the world.
When God showed to King David that he had made the wrong choices, King David changed and repented. He NEVER went back to the wrong choices and continue doing the wrong things and making wrong choices.
Jabez was called by God - A man of Valor! Although he was an illegitimate son, he did not despised himself. He knew that he is nothing by himself. He relied on God and called upon God. He was hungry and thirsty for God. God answered his prayer when he prayed - (1 Choronicles 4: 9)
I am writing this also, to myself. That I can read it whenever I can and meditate on this...
Hope that you, too are blessed!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Thoughts on Valentine's Day...
Just a thought after I read my friend's blog on multiply... A thought that triggered my mind..
So nice and sweet is Valentine's
When was the time I last spent mine?
I know it's not the time to whine,
Except to abide and wait for her to appear in time.
Many a time I asked why,
Will this dream girl ever come by.
Though I should not even sigh,
Even though each day passes by...
Into Heavens I look up high,
Praying hard I'll not miss the tide.
Somehow, someday she will come by,
I hope it's not the end of time...
So nice and sweet is Valentine's
When was the time I last spent mine?
I know it's not the time to whine,
Except to abide and wait for her to appear in time.
Many a time I asked why,
Will this dream girl ever come by.
Though I should not even sigh,
Even though each day passes by...
Into Heavens I look up high,
Praying hard I'll not miss the tide.
Somehow, someday she will come by,
I hope it's not the end of time...
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Friendship
That is a very a simple word, yet, it is so complicated when it comes to it. It forms a relationship between two persons and, of course, this will require some form of communications and time to be spent in order to know one another.
Regardless of what sort of relationships one maybe in (IE: Colleagues/ co-workers, just platonic (nonsexual) friendships, relationships with parents/ siblings/ relatives or with your other half) there is always a basic mode of communications. What then, is communication?
I heard someone said this before and I find it very useful and nice. This man said that “communication is a way of life!” Another man added that when communication breaks down, the relationship ends.
In fact, communication is never a one way thing. Just like the clapping of hands. You will need something or another hand to clap (it can be yours or another person’s hand). You cannot do the clapping just by using only one hand! Else it’ll be the grasping of the wind or slapping of the air around, which is absurd!
Is there any link between relationships and communication? Plenty!
Communicating with another person will give you the kind of relationship you will want to have with that person. It takes patience, effort and time to build a relationship. The level of communication will also enable you to determine the level of relationship you have with another person!
So, what am I talking about relationship and communication? Why is it that I want to write it down in my blog? Well, in time to come, you’ll know… I hope that it will be of help to me understand myself and enable others to know what I mean by friendship.
In Calvin Chung’s world, friendship does not exist when you are working together with a person. Even when you are in the same school/ class, you are not considered as friends as well. As long as you are in an organization and that the only way you see/ meet or interact with one another, is ONLY because of work/ studies or for whatever reasons OTHER THAN wanting to know the person better, you are not a friend. You are just a fellow worker/ have not even reached the level of friendship as well.
Therefore, if you are asking, how then and who do I consider a friend? I can say that a friend is not a taker. A friend gives and takes, it’s not always a one way road.
A friend would communicate with me at anytime, though not regularly but a friend will not communicate with me, just to tell me where they are/ or just to take attendance. In that case, what difference is it when a Company/ Organization which you are working for/ in, sends an email/ text message, just to inform you where they are and what to do.
Friendship is never forced upon. It is a process which one is willing, not because of any other things but because you just want to know that person individually and for who that person is! Friendship is supposed to be a willing process, comes right off the heart! It’s not something which is forced upon!
As the saying goes “People don’t care what you know until they know you care!” is really true!
Regardless of what sort of relationships one maybe in (IE: Colleagues/ co-workers, just platonic (nonsexual) friendships, relationships with parents/ siblings/ relatives or with your other half) there is always a basic mode of communications. What then, is communication?
I heard someone said this before and I find it very useful and nice. This man said that “communication is a way of life!” Another man added that when communication breaks down, the relationship ends.
In fact, communication is never a one way thing. Just like the clapping of hands. You will need something or another hand to clap (it can be yours or another person’s hand). You cannot do the clapping just by using only one hand! Else it’ll be the grasping of the wind or slapping of the air around, which is absurd!
Is there any link between relationships and communication? Plenty!
Communicating with another person will give you the kind of relationship you will want to have with that person. It takes patience, effort and time to build a relationship. The level of communication will also enable you to determine the level of relationship you have with another person!
So, what am I talking about relationship and communication? Why is it that I want to write it down in my blog? Well, in time to come, you’ll know… I hope that it will be of help to me understand myself and enable others to know what I mean by friendship.
In Calvin Chung’s world, friendship does not exist when you are working together with a person. Even when you are in the same school/ class, you are not considered as friends as well. As long as you are in an organization and that the only way you see/ meet or interact with one another, is ONLY because of work/ studies or for whatever reasons OTHER THAN wanting to know the person better, you are not a friend. You are just a fellow worker/ have not even reached the level of friendship as well.
Therefore, if you are asking, how then and who do I consider a friend? I can say that a friend is not a taker. A friend gives and takes, it’s not always a one way road.
A friend would communicate with me at anytime, though not regularly but a friend will not communicate with me, just to tell me where they are/ or just to take attendance. In that case, what difference is it when a Company/ Organization which you are working for/ in, sends an email/ text message, just to inform you where they are and what to do.
Friendship is never forced upon. It is a process which one is willing, not because of any other things but because you just want to know that person individually and for who that person is! Friendship is supposed to be a willing process, comes right off the heart! It’s not something which is forced upon!
As the saying goes “People don’t care what you know until they know you care!” is really true!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Tired
It is really ironic to be starting a new blog in such a negative way. However, I kind of felt rather tired after chasing after the “wind” and trying to know more people. I do not know why but I just felt like blogging this, as the first blog of the year.
Since late November 2007 till now, I have been getting to know more and more people from a website which I have been visiting. I got to know some great people there but at the same time, I got to know some, who are just out to TAKE from you. Recently, I have re-written my standards in getting to know friends. However, I find that it’s not going to be an easy task after all.
Somehow, I guess I am really tired of myself… I just find that I am grasping the wind. I thought I have it but, in the end, I realized that, I’m being used.
Oh yes, since last year, I’ve finally got involved in a cell group. Somehow, I just find that everything there is rather cold and do not sense that I belong there at all. Maybe, it’s just me again?
I really do not know what to do at all. I need friends but who can I call, as a friend? The best of all, I do not know who my friend is and who my enemies are. I am getting confused. Really messed up and confused… I need direction…
Oh yes, few days ago, I learnt from my mum that my younger sister is pregnant again. She's in the 4th month of pregnancy and my mum believes that the baby's gonna be a baby boy again. Gosh... When is my turn? I really wonder when and how am I gonna get married or will I even get attached and have a wife eventually?
Really tired... Wish to end it all... I am feeling down.. Feeling discouraged... Does anyone know? Even when you know... Will it be too late? Sigh...
BLESS THE LORD ALL MY SOUL AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIMES! REJOICE IN THE LORD! AGAIN, I SAY REJOICE FOR GOD IS WITH ME. WHO CAN COME AGAINST ME? THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE RIVER OF VALLEY OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL! FOR GOD IS MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS! GOD!!! I NEED YOU DESPERATELY. GUIDE ME I ASK AND PRAY IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!! HEAR MY CRY I PRAY! PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE ME. I'VE SINNED AND HAVE SINNED AGAINST YOU ALONE ONLY. DO NOT HIDE YOUR FACE AWAY FROM ME. REMEMBER THIS DAY... REMEMBER ME, THAT I WANT TO SERVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, MY MIGHT AND SOUL. WITH ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME... DO NOT DEPART FROM ME IN JESUS' NAME...
Since late November 2007 till now, I have been getting to know more and more people from a website which I have been visiting. I got to know some great people there but at the same time, I got to know some, who are just out to TAKE from you. Recently, I have re-written my standards in getting to know friends. However, I find that it’s not going to be an easy task after all.
Somehow, I guess I am really tired of myself… I just find that I am grasping the wind. I thought I have it but, in the end, I realized that, I’m being used.
Oh yes, since last year, I’ve finally got involved in a cell group. Somehow, I just find that everything there is rather cold and do not sense that I belong there at all. Maybe, it’s just me again?
I really do not know what to do at all. I need friends but who can I call, as a friend? The best of all, I do not know who my friend is and who my enemies are. I am getting confused. Really messed up and confused… I need direction…
Oh yes, few days ago, I learnt from my mum that my younger sister is pregnant again. She's in the 4th month of pregnancy and my mum believes that the baby's gonna be a baby boy again. Gosh... When is my turn? I really wonder when and how am I gonna get married or will I even get attached and have a wife eventually?
Really tired... Wish to end it all... I am feeling down.. Feeling discouraged... Does anyone know? Even when you know... Will it be too late? Sigh...
BLESS THE LORD ALL MY SOUL AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIMES! REJOICE IN THE LORD! AGAIN, I SAY REJOICE FOR GOD IS WITH ME. WHO CAN COME AGAINST ME? THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE RIVER OF VALLEY OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL! FOR GOD IS MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS! GOD!!! I NEED YOU DESPERATELY. GUIDE ME I ASK AND PRAY IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!! HEAR MY CRY I PRAY! PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE ME. I'VE SINNED AND HAVE SINNED AGAINST YOU ALONE ONLY. DO NOT HIDE YOUR FACE AWAY FROM ME. REMEMBER THIS DAY... REMEMBER ME, THAT I WANT TO SERVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, MY MIGHT AND SOUL. WITH ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME... DO NOT DEPART FROM ME IN JESUS' NAME...
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
