Reflections

It’s been a real long time since I’ve last written a blog. Finally, I have the time and courage to write something.

Just read the title of the entry written earlier this year and I was wondering if I’d ever have a proper career. I was so depressed and greatly discouraged back then. However, God is good all the time.

There are a few things which I’d like to share about my current “status” but there will be something which I’d not want to share unless it really comes true.

Do you remember that I was talking of changing cell group etc and how I was so unhappy with my cell group? Well, good news! I am no longer unhappy there. In fact, I enjoy myself in the cell group. I am glad that I did not change any cell group!

W149, a cell which I felt left out and rejected is now a place where I can dare say that I enjoy and like! I really thank God for the work that He’s done in my life. God used me to bring in people like Alexus, Pierre, Isabelle and Terrence Leong. Shortly after they joined in, friends like Pei En, Meiyi, Alvin and various others were added to the cell.

I believe that the people who really spoke to my life were both Alexus and Pierre. Although they are both imperfect individuals, they are the ones who confronted me when I was having wrong perspective. I believe that it’s true that there are times when we are so cooped up with ourselves that we would not see things clearly and I thank God for the two of them. I thank God for my friend, Pierre that he’s able to bring across things to me in a nice manner.

The cell group which forgot about my birthday last year actually remembered and knew when my birthday is! Although not many celebrated with me, I thank God for Alexus that she had organized a small celebration for me on the actual day of my birthday!

This year’s birthday is one of the most memorable one for me. This is because this is the first time in my life that I have many friends celebrating with me and for me. People like Terrence Leong, Man Ling, Alexus, Isabelle, Xiao Hui etc. They are all from the cell group! Woohoo!!!
Birthday may seem like a small event to most but to me, it’s one of the most important days in my life. Please do not misunderstand me but to me, birthday is a day where I hope that people would remember me and would shower me with love, company and with presents. I really envy my friends who have tons of presents on their birthday or have lots of company when it’s their birthday.

I really disliked those ex-secondary school friends of mine especially when they would honour each other with expensive gifts but when it’s my birthday, they would suddenly become very miserable in their giving. I know that it’s not the value of the gift that matters but somehow, it’s the difference that they showed me that hurts me rather bad. Which is why whenever it’s someone’s birthday, I would see how they would treat the person and how they would treat me. If there’s a difference, then, I’d know how to treat that person.

To whomever who still thinks that I don’t appreciate the cell group or still have anything against anyone in the cell group, please note this… MOVE ON IN LIFE! Life is NEVER stagnant! Stop talking about the past.. It’ll never have future!

Please open up your eyes and see. I do know that you can see but please see with your eyes wide open! If I don’t enjoy the fellowship of the people whom I told you I had disliked due to some misunderstandings, please open up your eyes. Am I not talking to them and having fun with them? Or is there anything wrong with you?

Secondly, my career!
I know that I am not earning as much as some of my peers. They may be earning tens of thousands per month and boast that they are blessed by God. With all due respect, I do know that you are blessed by God. You do have talents, abilities and qualifications but know this… I am not as talented, gifted or qualified as you are. I may not be as well to do as you are too but have you heard or seen what God is doing in my life?

Just like you, I do give my tithes, offering and give onto the building fund. When it’s not the time for me to be blessed by God, does it mean that I am giving lesser or am less blessed by you? I am blessed in my health by God already! Considering that I do not have much of health issues and I don’t have any sickness in my life. So wake up!

Did you know that the job that I initially applied for is only an officer’s job? Did you know that I was offered a higher position? Did you know that with the qualifications/ experiences and past history in my career, I doubt that anyone would offer me the job that I am given and the range of salary that I am given as well? Did you also know that after being in the job for less than half a year, I will be given more responsibilities and I will be going into the managerial role next month onwards?

If the above mentioned is not a blessing of God, then what is? Is God’s blessing mainly consists of plain money, money and more money? Please… Is your mind the size of a pea?

Looking back since the beginning of January 2008 till now… I can say that I am blessed! I am indeed going to overcome whatever that is to come. YES! Although I don’t have the qualifications, experiences or even the abilities to do what is given to me. I know one thing for sure… God IS ABLE to provide me whatever I need or ask for even before I knew I’d need it!

I believe in the year 2009, I will be able to do greater things and will rise to further heights in my Spiritual walk, in my career and walk in better health too! Amen to that!